Monday, May 26, 2008

Screwed Up

I don't want to be a screwed up. You never know what in store for you in the future. Nothing is for sure and we can never know what will happen. When I was at young age, I assume that life just flow smoothly, my family and siblings will live happily ever after and all will just go with flow.

However, as life goes on and I get older I learn that life is not like a box of candy. I was the youngest and the age difference with my siblings are at least 8 years. I feel like a loner when I was young since when I was schooling my siblings have already embark their career life. Most of them don't stay at hometown. They started their career life elsewhere. So I was alone with my parents and sometime feels like I was an only child. I was ecstatic when any of my sister's or brother's were back home occasionally because that will be the time when my pockets are full and I got new shoes or new dress etc. At that time, I feel like bad things won't happen to us.

The next phase was when all my siblings got married and started their own family. I knew that marriage and divorce exist but that won't happen to me or my siblings or my friends and so I thought.

The first close acquaintances divorce story I first heard happen to a colleague of my high school friend. She got married while in Uni and divorce not long after. That time I was so surprised and feel very2 sorry for her. And that was not the first. After that, a few of friends have the same fate and when it happen to my brother I soon realized it can happen to anybody at any moment. However, my brother now re-married and luckily the marriage before does not involve in any child since they don't have any. Now he is happy with two lovely children, a girl and a boy.

What encourage me to type in this post is actually yesterday I get to know another may be divorce story developing in my family. My other brother with 5 children is on the break of tragedy. They are not finalized yet but I feel sorry for his children.

With all this on-going in life. I pray that my marriage won't be a screwed up. I love my children and my husband. May that all good to come will always be there for me. Insya ALLAH.

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