"Saya takkan maafkan dia.."

Those are the words form a devastated mother to a 11 month baby that died because of the abusive Indonesian maid. This incident had me recalled the video I once received through mail that shows an indonesian maid abusing a toddler about that age. She threw the baby on the sofa and cursing and slapping the toddler ignoring the baby crying continuously. At the point of writing this, I am holding my tears, my heart ache whenever I watch or I read about these incidents. Please GOD, protect my children and my family from all the evil doing in this world. I also pray that this does not happen to me. I rather switch places with my children than let them be suffered.
:( So sad.. indeed.

Bad Dream :(

Yesterday i had a bad and sad dream. I end up sobbing when i woke up and saw my beautiful shakeel smiling at me. Never happen to me before. I hope and pray that the dream is just a dream. Insya allah. Pray for me too.

My current/new hobby

I am currently in a process of knitting 'manik' for my baju raya. This year feels a little excited to melaram. Maybe it is because this year shakeel is able to walk n ready to wear his baju melayu. Last year, he was just a baby. This year also my hubby tempah his baju melayu. Last 2 years, he recycle his baju melayu.
I'll capture my art creation once it has completed. For now, I just attach along some of my art inspirationn that i got from the internet. My baju raya theme this year is in fact PURPLE.

Prime Suspect!!

The picture has nothing to do or related with the topic above. (Just sharing in my blog the two person I most proud of)

6 August 2007 was a bad choice day of my life. For the first time since we were departed to work in a cabin like an immigrant worker, on that day without my notice I was the last one to leave. It was only 6.30 pm and I was busy watching Die Hard 4.0 on my laptop. When I look around I was alone. Luckily my husband arrived sooner after but since I am the last one so I took the responsibility to closed and locked the cabin. Then, following what was instructed I pass the key to the guard in the main building.
What a bad luck, the next day a theft has been taken place. 2 laptop was missing and some even lose some money. Shit! What a smart bum to leave notebooks inside a cabin that has the minimum security available. The grill doesn't have a pad lock at all.
And because I was the last one to leave I have been answering people's question and been interrogate by the person that lost the notebook, by the facilities people and today by Mimos guard. What a luck!! And they are going to report it and for sure i'll be interrogate by the police next. Man...hate it. Whatever it is, the truth will prevail. Praise to Allah!

Changes in Life

I write here usually when there's something keep boggling in my mind. This time it is about changes. My old friend contacted me last week. We were supposed to meet up at my office but her appointment was canceled at the last minutes. She called and we talk awhile catching up past times. But the things that disturb a bit with my mind when she says all my old friends was surprised how i was changed.

I was a bit confused, have i changed? Well, these bunch of old friends was friends from my old days back when i was way younger. They were my friends from sekolah rendah to sekolah menengah rendah up until I was 15 years old. Wow..meaning 15 years have gone already since now i am already 30. So tell me for 15 years who doesn't change? For 15 years, a lot of phase in life has pass through from teens to adult, single to married, daughter to mother and childish to matured.

With that, to answer the question have i changed? OF COURSE! Who's not? Mawi also change what..

Maybe, it is the way i changes that shocked them. When I was at my early teens, i was behaving like i could be a superstar. Up to date attire, social-ling a lot i could say about to loose my composure and thrown to the dark side. Hah! Thats to brutal i think. Hehe.

Maybe again, they might thought after 15 years i could be a posh and classy gal. Wearing branded clothes and blonds hair. Well, i am so glad i do not turn out like that. :)

I believe in changes to be better. I made mistakes in my life and i learn from it. I tried to be a better person maybe some says dah taubat. It is good that people think like that but as a muslimah i believe there are many things that I have to change to really says that I already taubat. :)

Again, maybe because they haven't seen me for years coz when i tell my uni friends regarding these they laugh meaning they could not see a lot of changes. It is what people says the jalan we choose in life. Anyway, when i look around most of people I work with is like me, wearing same type of cloths and style the same. But, I am still evolving to the very least but i always hope for the better.

And so my friends, let us change together.